Tuesday, September 24, 2013
New Blog
Thank you for reading "Content, Never Satisfied." However, due to some account change stuff, I had to change to a new blog. Please continue reading at barefootrevandy.blogspot.com
Why Didn't God Just...?
On Saturday morning, I was facilitating a conversation into Acts 14. Specifically, our Bible study was addressing the story of Paul and Barnabas being mistaken for incarnate Hermes and Zeus, respectively. The folks of Lystra watch Paul heal somebody, then offer sacrifices to him, saying, "The gods have come down in human form!"
At this point, I would have said "We are not gods come down in human form, but let me tell you about the God who did come down in human form..." Theological commentaries even addressed the incarnation in this story, and on a meta level, I believe the narrative is written in such a way to make the reader think about the incarnation. However, Paul goes in a different way. He never even addresses Jesus by name. He talks about the Creator as good and the one who brings seasons and joy. It seemed like such a simple place to go.
And yet, it is where the Lystran people were. They worshiped the Greek gods as the arbitrary and morally questionable keepers of the seasons, even though polytheistic worship was out of vogue in the Roman Empire. Paul addressed them where they were.
I led a class on addressing faith and science a month ago. In this class, I received this question: "Why would God give scientifically inaccurate information in the Bible?" The earth is not built on pillars, it is not flat, etc. And to many, the notion that there would be scientifically inaccurate information in the Bible is tantamount to God lying. Then God would not be God.
Or is there another way? Perhaps God truly does speak to us as we are. In Lystra, Paul knew that the prime concern of the people was to keep the cycles of fertility and harvest going. In Genesis/Proverbs/Job/Psalms, God seems more interested in talking about who created and for what purpose than the mechanics of creation (in a modern scientific sense). In this, the very act of revelation is an act of grace- God speaking to us in a way we can understand, in language which makes sense.
Now here's the tricky part. I think we are meant to emulate this behavior. So often, discipleship is reduced to the efficient transfer of information. This model of discipleship is often void of relationship, void of patience and can be done with a large stack of books and no other mentor. Jesus called people into relationship, transmitted information in inefficient stories and parables without a lesson plan, and sent them out to do ministry before they were ready. If God listens and understands before speaking, perhaps discipleship is far more about the relationship and the time than it is about the information being transmitted.
Somehow, a model of discipleship that listens first, loves first, and speaks second seems both more human and more divine.
At this point, I would have said "We are not gods come down in human form, but let me tell you about the God who did come down in human form..." Theological commentaries even addressed the incarnation in this story, and on a meta level, I believe the narrative is written in such a way to make the reader think about the incarnation. However, Paul goes in a different way. He never even addresses Jesus by name. He talks about the Creator as good and the one who brings seasons and joy. It seemed like such a simple place to go.
And yet, it is where the Lystran people were. They worshiped the Greek gods as the arbitrary and morally questionable keepers of the seasons, even though polytheistic worship was out of vogue in the Roman Empire. Paul addressed them where they were.
I led a class on addressing faith and science a month ago. In this class, I received this question: "Why would God give scientifically inaccurate information in the Bible?" The earth is not built on pillars, it is not flat, etc. And to many, the notion that there would be scientifically inaccurate information in the Bible is tantamount to God lying. Then God would not be God.
Or is there another way? Perhaps God truly does speak to us as we are. In Lystra, Paul knew that the prime concern of the people was to keep the cycles of fertility and harvest going. In Genesis/Proverbs/Job/Psalms, God seems more interested in talking about who created and for what purpose than the mechanics of creation (in a modern scientific sense). In this, the very act of revelation is an act of grace- God speaking to us in a way we can understand, in language which makes sense.
Now here's the tricky part. I think we are meant to emulate this behavior. So often, discipleship is reduced to the efficient transfer of information. This model of discipleship is often void of relationship, void of patience and can be done with a large stack of books and no other mentor. Jesus called people into relationship, transmitted information in inefficient stories and parables without a lesson plan, and sent them out to do ministry before they were ready. If God listens and understands before speaking, perhaps discipleship is far more about the relationship and the time than it is about the information being transmitted.
Somehow, a model of discipleship that listens first, loves first, and speaks second seems both more human and more divine.
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Living at the End of the World, Old Testament-Style
No genre intrigues me like the post-apocalyptic genre. TV Shows like Falling Skies, Walking Dead and even Revolution keep calling me back to see how the world would end and what would happen afterward. Damon Lindelof, one of the creators of Lost, is back on TV with a show about the time after the Rapture (an event I don't believe in, but still intrigued by). In the aftermath of apocalypse, the rules are changed and the world is reset with an opportunity to rebuild and recreate... maybe even to avoid the mistakes which have gone on before.
And yet it never works. People are still people. Tyrants rise up, slavery happens and people turn on one another. Civilizations fall apart just as easily after the apocalypse than before.
My fascination with post-apocalyptic resonates with my fascination with the Old Testament. The Old Testament is a series of end-of-the-world stories. Adam and Eve, Flood, Babel, Abraham, Exodus, Judges, Assyrian exile, Babylonian exile, Return and Restoration of the Temple, are all stories where there is an apocalyptic event and people have to respond to a changing set of circumstances. When you consider the apocalyptic imagery of the prophets, it isn't too difficult to view the Old Testament happening in the same world as the Walking Dead. Substitute the Babylonians for "Walkers" or "Skitters," and you understand the Old Testament pretty well.
Perhaps this is partially why folks in the United States have such a hard time understanding the depth of the Old Testament. The church has responded to the modern age by valuing certainty and comfort, whereas the Old Testament is honest about doubt and pain. The modern US church loves to talk about safety, whereas the Old Testament skips over the safe times and emphasizes the unsafe times. The modern US church refers to God in quiet deference, whereas the Old Testament interacts with God through raw nerves and unflinching commitment to what is.
The Old Testament shows us that disaster and catastrophe is part of the landscape of life in this world. The Old Testament also shows us that those who insulate themselves from catastrophe are either a) powerless to do anything about it, or b) part of the catastrophe. But ultimately, the Old Testament reveals a God who is willing to step into catastrophe time and time again to take it on and heal the deep wounds. It makes perfect sense, then, that the complete depiction of God in Scripture is a guy who stepped into catastrophe and took it on, even to the cross and beyond.
And yet it never works. People are still people. Tyrants rise up, slavery happens and people turn on one another. Civilizations fall apart just as easily after the apocalypse than before.
My fascination with post-apocalyptic resonates with my fascination with the Old Testament. The Old Testament is a series of end-of-the-world stories. Adam and Eve, Flood, Babel, Abraham, Exodus, Judges, Assyrian exile, Babylonian exile, Return and Restoration of the Temple, are all stories where there is an apocalyptic event and people have to respond to a changing set of circumstances. When you consider the apocalyptic imagery of the prophets, it isn't too difficult to view the Old Testament happening in the same world as the Walking Dead. Substitute the Babylonians for "Walkers" or "Skitters," and you understand the Old Testament pretty well.
Perhaps this is partially why folks in the United States have such a hard time understanding the depth of the Old Testament. The church has responded to the modern age by valuing certainty and comfort, whereas the Old Testament is honest about doubt and pain. The modern US church loves to talk about safety, whereas the Old Testament skips over the safe times and emphasizes the unsafe times. The modern US church refers to God in quiet deference, whereas the Old Testament interacts with God through raw nerves and unflinching commitment to what is.
The Old Testament shows us that disaster and catastrophe is part of the landscape of life in this world. The Old Testament also shows us that those who insulate themselves from catastrophe are either a) powerless to do anything about it, or b) part of the catastrophe. But ultimately, the Old Testament reveals a God who is willing to step into catastrophe time and time again to take it on and heal the deep wounds. It makes perfect sense, then, that the complete depiction of God in Scripture is a guy who stepped into catastrophe and took it on, even to the cross and beyond.
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
A Safe Place at the Kiddy Table
Three things have happened in the past few weeks, and they are linked.
1) I was invited to join the "Deep and Wide" cohort of 15 emerging pastors in the RCA. Don't read "emerging" in terms of theology, but in terms of age. Pastors in this cohort will be approximately 25-35, and I am safely on the younger end of that spectrum at 28.
2) We had four children (ages six and under) stay in our home.
3) I told a group of pastors (all of whom have my deepest respect and admiration/envy) about a time I failed to accomplish what I said I would accomplish.
There's something about eating with a range of children that is utterly fascinating. Some children are at an age where they need to be told to finish their food, some children need to be told how to properly eat their food, and some children are at an age where they just go at it and you wait patiently to clean up afterward. The progress is fun to watch. Children, as they age, begin to take on more responsibility at the table. Eventually adults will help clean up after themselves (in theory...). Children, however, create all sorts of messes with varying degrees of capacity to clean it up or even see it.
Confession: I don't like being referred to as young. I hear young, I hear child. I hear young, I hear child, I feel an intense desire to prove myself. I could let the chip on my shoulder slide a little bit. As I remind people, I will naturally phase out of being young. I am already approaching the big 3-0, after all.
Second confession: There's something attractive about sitting at the kiddy table.
At the kiddy table, I am there to make people laugh and attract attention before being released to play. But at the grown-up table, I have to clean up my messes and take responsibility for the functioning of the table.
I sit at many tables. I am in a church table, a denomination table (and being invited into this cohort is a big deal for me at this table), a family table, friendship tables, and even a table of community agencies working together for the betterment of my county. Those are a lot of tables. And yet, there is something attractive about going back to the kiddy table. It is comfortable there. I can sit and talk about what needs to be changed but never take ownership of that change. Changing systems is for grown ups, just like doing the dishes for Thanksgiving.
The kiddy table was cool for a time, but there are areas in my life in which I want out of the kiddy table and to take the place that Jesus has set for me at the grown-up table, wherever that place may be. Perhaps you, the reader, are sitting at the kiddy table of life, a victim of circumstances or scheduling. Let's take a walk together to the grown up table and learn together what it means to take responsibility there.
1) I was invited to join the "Deep and Wide" cohort of 15 emerging pastors in the RCA. Don't read "emerging" in terms of theology, but in terms of age. Pastors in this cohort will be approximately 25-35, and I am safely on the younger end of that spectrum at 28.
2) We had four children (ages six and under) stay in our home.
3) I told a group of pastors (all of whom have my deepest respect and admiration/envy) about a time I failed to accomplish what I said I would accomplish.
There's something about eating with a range of children that is utterly fascinating. Some children are at an age where they need to be told to finish their food, some children need to be told how to properly eat their food, and some children are at an age where they just go at it and you wait patiently to clean up afterward. The progress is fun to watch. Children, as they age, begin to take on more responsibility at the table. Eventually adults will help clean up after themselves (in theory...). Children, however, create all sorts of messes with varying degrees of capacity to clean it up or even see it.
Confession: I don't like being referred to as young. I hear young, I hear child. I hear young, I hear child, I feel an intense desire to prove myself. I could let the chip on my shoulder slide a little bit. As I remind people, I will naturally phase out of being young. I am already approaching the big 3-0, after all.
Second confession: There's something attractive about sitting at the kiddy table.
At the kiddy table, I am there to make people laugh and attract attention before being released to play. But at the grown-up table, I have to clean up my messes and take responsibility for the functioning of the table.
I sit at many tables. I am in a church table, a denomination table (and being invited into this cohort is a big deal for me at this table), a family table, friendship tables, and even a table of community agencies working together for the betterment of my county. Those are a lot of tables. And yet, there is something attractive about going back to the kiddy table. It is comfortable there. I can sit and talk about what needs to be changed but never take ownership of that change. Changing systems is for grown ups, just like doing the dishes for Thanksgiving.
The kiddy table was cool for a time, but there are areas in my life in which I want out of the kiddy table and to take the place that Jesus has set for me at the grown-up table, wherever that place may be. Perhaps you, the reader, are sitting at the kiddy table of life, a victim of circumstances or scheduling. Let's take a walk together to the grown up table and learn together what it means to take responsibility there.
Thursday, June 27, 2013
"I Saw The Old You Back There"
Few words can hold the power of, "I saw the 'old you' back there." "Old you." I remember old me. Old me isn't that old.
When I was in elementary school, my school had its fair share of bullies. Big kids in groups who tormented the other kids in the school. Safe to say, I was a common target coming home from school. I never received anything too traumatic, but I can remember the constant cruelty of a few kids. Let's be honest, I am never going to be confused for biggest kid in the class. The same was true in elementary school. With a heavy backpack on, I knew that I could not run. My size made it challenging to fight. But I was smarter than my bullies. A lot smarter. I had a way with words and a skill in crafting them together. And so when the bullies would make fun of something, I would turn it back on them. The first few times just embarrassed me as they had pre-thought out insults printed from the computer or from a book. I did not.
But eventually, I grew in my skills and turned it around. By middle school, people wouldn't make fun of me because they knew that once I got rolling, I could embarrass them to the point of having their own friends laughing at my jokes. It's how I protected myself from the bullies. And it had the hidden consequence of getting others to approve of me. They thought I was funny. They laughed when I laughed. They complimented my way with words. I was accepted.
By the end of high school, when I told people I wanted to become a pastor, I got two responses. One was "Oh, how wonderful!" and the other was "Wait... you?" People who had been on the receiving end of my jokes were often the first to question my choice of profession.
Over the course of college and seminary, I worked really hard to tame the tongue. And I saw some victory there.
Then, a few nights ago, I heard those words: "I saw the 'old you' back there." My wife recognized the Mr. Hyde to my Dr. Jekyll. For those who don't know the story, Dr. Jekyll was a scientist who tried to a way to isolate human evil, but instead created a way for his dark impulses to take center stage in the form of diminutive Mr. Hyde. But Dr. Jekyll finds himself changing into Mr. Hyde without his fancy chemicals. Soon, he finds himself changing into Mr. Hyde and not realizing it. The end of the story is dark and tragic. I had slipped into "old me" without realizing, embracing the fact that my words were gaining approval at the expense of a friend.
Through a process called FaithWalking, I am learning to see myself more clearly and to recognize when the various Mr. Hyde's show up. What most people don't recognize from the story, because they are used to the Incredible Hulk image, is that Mr. Hyde is actually smaller than Dr. Jekyll. In many ways, Hyde represents a child more than a monster. And the same thing was true then. I was in a crowd of people I didn't know, and felt scared. And when I am afraid, there is an 8-year old saying "Remember how you handled this? Remember when people laughed with you and didn't ignore you?" And the 8-year old won out.
1 Corinthians 13 may be one of the most famous passages in the Bible, but it is also one of the most challenging. It ends with these words: "When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me." That 8 year old voice of fear may have helped me get to this point in life. It gave me the feeling of confidence, a belief that I could stand up to people more powerful than me and helped me work on my use of words. All of those are skills I use today. But that voice also makes me see people like things to be used for my own ease and safety. So it is a voice that needs to be put behind me.
It's too bad, really. Dr. Jekyll could never rid himself of the Hyde voice. And maybe I won't either. But through the grace of God, perhaps that voice of fear can come face to face with the voice of God's perfect love.
When I was in elementary school, my school had its fair share of bullies. Big kids in groups who tormented the other kids in the school. Safe to say, I was a common target coming home from school. I never received anything too traumatic, but I can remember the constant cruelty of a few kids. Let's be honest, I am never going to be confused for biggest kid in the class. The same was true in elementary school. With a heavy backpack on, I knew that I could not run. My size made it challenging to fight. But I was smarter than my bullies. A lot smarter. I had a way with words and a skill in crafting them together. And so when the bullies would make fun of something, I would turn it back on them. The first few times just embarrassed me as they had pre-thought out insults printed from the computer or from a book. I did not.
But eventually, I grew in my skills and turned it around. By middle school, people wouldn't make fun of me because they knew that once I got rolling, I could embarrass them to the point of having their own friends laughing at my jokes. It's how I protected myself from the bullies. And it had the hidden consequence of getting others to approve of me. They thought I was funny. They laughed when I laughed. They complimented my way with words. I was accepted.
By the end of high school, when I told people I wanted to become a pastor, I got two responses. One was "Oh, how wonderful!" and the other was "Wait... you?" People who had been on the receiving end of my jokes were often the first to question my choice of profession.
Over the course of college and seminary, I worked really hard to tame the tongue. And I saw some victory there.
Then, a few nights ago, I heard those words: "I saw the 'old you' back there." My wife recognized the Mr. Hyde to my Dr. Jekyll. For those who don't know the story, Dr. Jekyll was a scientist who tried to a way to isolate human evil, but instead created a way for his dark impulses to take center stage in the form of diminutive Mr. Hyde. But Dr. Jekyll finds himself changing into Mr. Hyde without his fancy chemicals. Soon, he finds himself changing into Mr. Hyde and not realizing it. The end of the story is dark and tragic. I had slipped into "old me" without realizing, embracing the fact that my words were gaining approval at the expense of a friend.
Through a process called FaithWalking, I am learning to see myself more clearly and to recognize when the various Mr. Hyde's show up. What most people don't recognize from the story, because they are used to the Incredible Hulk image, is that Mr. Hyde is actually smaller than Dr. Jekyll. In many ways, Hyde represents a child more than a monster. And the same thing was true then. I was in a crowd of people I didn't know, and felt scared. And when I am afraid, there is an 8-year old saying "Remember how you handled this? Remember when people laughed with you and didn't ignore you?" And the 8-year old won out.
1 Corinthians 13 may be one of the most famous passages in the Bible, but it is also one of the most challenging. It ends with these words: "When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me." That 8 year old voice of fear may have helped me get to this point in life. It gave me the feeling of confidence, a belief that I could stand up to people more powerful than me and helped me work on my use of words. All of those are skills I use today. But that voice also makes me see people like things to be used for my own ease and safety. So it is a voice that needs to be put behind me.
It's too bad, really. Dr. Jekyll could never rid himself of the Hyde voice. And maybe I won't either. But through the grace of God, perhaps that voice of fear can come face to face with the voice of God's perfect love.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
It's Just a Bus Ride
There are things I have hated to admit over time. One: I battle envy on a fairly regular basis. Two: I really like control. The first one has seen enough ink. The second one has some energy to it today.
Over the course of the past several months (a year already... how time flies), our church has been taking a good hard look at ourselves and at our community to see where we need to invest in our growth and in the shalom of the Glen Lake area. And so we saw in ourselves a need to grow in the areas of spiritual formation/disciplines (who doesn't?) and that our community was one where isolation was becoming more of a "thing." Isolation is a regular experience for people living in the most beautiful place in America. What a good way to encourage spiritual discipline than to commit ourselves to ending isolation? Spiritual disciplines, after all, open ourselves to God and neighbor, effectively ending isolation from both.
Then it got personal. I committed myself to understanding public transit in a rural community. Whereas I would think that I would embrace public transportation in an urban area, I tend to think of my car as a survival skill in Glen Arbor. My inner dread increased as I began to think about the things I would need to cope with in order to make the bus part of my life.
I am a couple miles from the nearest bus stop.
The bus only comes a couple times a day.
The places I need to go can be a mile or two from the bus stop.
I have to be prompt and carry cash (even exact change!).
Confession: I feel entitled. I feel entitled to my car. I feel entitled to my schedule. I feel entitled to do what I want when I want. The rural public transportation system defies my entitlement.
Entitlement is a dirty word nowadays, particularly in a time of sequestration. Entitlement has gone from a feeling to a code word for government subsidy. Nobody wants to admit to feeling "entitled." So allow me to say it again, allow me to bring that demon out of the shadow and into the light, where it belongs.
I feel entitled to controlling my own life.
I wish the bus system was the only place this entitlement shows up. But it isn't. My entitlement shows up in how I respond to interruptions. My entitlement shows up when I work really hard and it doesn't go according to plan. My entitlement shows up in how I expect the social systems of the world to work for me all the time, even when I hear my neighbors and friends lament how the systems seem to be arrayed against them. And so I show up with a degree of entitlement. And I don't like it. I like to think of myself as a justice-minded, shalomy type of pastor. And still, I sit in my office grumbling over the fact that my bus stop is a one mile walk from the my target.
Richard Foster would not list "bus riding" as part of the new edition of "Celebration of Discipline," but that's just what it will be for me as I seek to make the bus part of my life. It's a chance to challenge my own model of how the world "should be" and embrace the way God would have it be. It may be just a bus ride, but for me, it's a prayer.
Over the course of the past several months (a year already... how time flies), our church has been taking a good hard look at ourselves and at our community to see where we need to invest in our growth and in the shalom of the Glen Lake area. And so we saw in ourselves a need to grow in the areas of spiritual formation/disciplines (who doesn't?) and that our community was one where isolation was becoming more of a "thing." Isolation is a regular experience for people living in the most beautiful place in America. What a good way to encourage spiritual discipline than to commit ourselves to ending isolation? Spiritual disciplines, after all, open ourselves to God and neighbor, effectively ending isolation from both.
Then it got personal. I committed myself to understanding public transit in a rural community. Whereas I would think that I would embrace public transportation in an urban area, I tend to think of my car as a survival skill in Glen Arbor. My inner dread increased as I began to think about the things I would need to cope with in order to make the bus part of my life.
I am a couple miles from the nearest bus stop.
The bus only comes a couple times a day.
The places I need to go can be a mile or two from the bus stop.
I have to be prompt and carry cash (even exact change!).
Confession: I feel entitled. I feel entitled to my car. I feel entitled to my schedule. I feel entitled to do what I want when I want. The rural public transportation system defies my entitlement.
Entitlement is a dirty word nowadays, particularly in a time of sequestration. Entitlement has gone from a feeling to a code word for government subsidy. Nobody wants to admit to feeling "entitled." So allow me to say it again, allow me to bring that demon out of the shadow and into the light, where it belongs.
I feel entitled to controlling my own life.
I wish the bus system was the only place this entitlement shows up. But it isn't. My entitlement shows up in how I respond to interruptions. My entitlement shows up when I work really hard and it doesn't go according to plan. My entitlement shows up in how I expect the social systems of the world to work for me all the time, even when I hear my neighbors and friends lament how the systems seem to be arrayed against them. And so I show up with a degree of entitlement. And I don't like it. I like to think of myself as a justice-minded, shalomy type of pastor. And still, I sit in my office grumbling over the fact that my bus stop is a one mile walk from the my target.
Richard Foster would not list "bus riding" as part of the new edition of "Celebration of Discipline," but that's just what it will be for me as I seek to make the bus part of my life. It's a chance to challenge my own model of how the world "should be" and embrace the way God would have it be. It may be just a bus ride, but for me, it's a prayer.
Monday, March 11, 2013
Does Jesus Live in a Church?
Very few theologians would state that the answer to the above question is "yes." Despite my hyper-awareness of every sound in the church building after the sun goes down, I don't expect to find Jesus taking cookies out of the freezer or anything. I do that. Jesus doesn't.
So why do I ask the question about where Jesus lives? I think we functionally understand that Jesus lives inside the church walls, looking out at a broken world and hoping people will come to Him for solutions. It sort of reminds me of the psychiatric stand in the Peanuts cartoon strip. We hold this view when our outreach strategies and programmatic endgame is to get people within the walls of a church building so that they can meet Jesus. This plan, however effective it may have proved in the past (even this is disputable, this plan has created the current reality of the US Church), has significant drawbacks. Those drawbacks are as old as the book of Genesis.
When God created, God formed a Temple worthy of God's beauty and majesty. This Temple was called the universe, or Creation if you want to use more Church-language. Within that Temple, God created a smaller temple called Eden. God moved about the temple as a smaller version of the big thing, but with one notable exception- the presence of human beings. But human beings thought that God was confined, and so they opted for "wisdom" and instead received shame. They hid in the mini-temple from God. A place which had told the story of God's beauty suddenly didn't. It now told the story of hiding. And so that mini-temple was abandoned.
The second mini-temple was the tabernacle, culminating in the construction of a physical temple in Jerusalem. This temple also reflected the cosmic Temple with the exception that there were now steps of entrance so that human beings could be in the temple space with God as well. But the problem came when the people of Israel thought that God was confined to the mini-temple, and not the Temple. So with a version of God neatly confined to the Jerusalem temple, the Israelites trashed the cosmic Temple with waste, denial of sabbath, injustice and idolatry.
The New Testament introduces a new mini-temple- the Church. Not the building, the physical bodies of the people. Now the cosmic Temple unites with the mini-temple. And the Holy Spirit resides in both.
And so now we come to the dangerous theology of Jesus living inside the Church structures. Church buildings, in my estimation, are good. They can house worship services, community functions, and provide resources for ongoing ministry to the most vulnerable and marginalized in the community. However, they also run a particular risk of believing that Jesus is waiting on us to minister before He will get involved.
The New Testament seems to say that Jesus wants to partner with us in ministry, but not to wait for us. Indeed, it seems that we inherit Jesus' ministry, which means that Jesus is already outside the walls and working. Jesus is on the streets and sitting in the homes of the lonely. Jesus is in the eyes of the starving and providing encouragement to those in despair. In fact, when we meet Jesus in Revelation 3, Jesus is trying to go to church but has been locked out. The people inside are too busy caring about other things than getting involved in Jesus' work of love, justice and reconciliation. For those who are wondering, it is the Church of Laodicea, who famously get called "lukewarm" and have been the subject of intense sermons for centuries.
Friends, we have been hiding since Genesis 3. We have been trying to rest on our own "in-ness" since the Old Testament. Jesus is already at work in the great Temple of the universe, and the Holy Spirit has been flitting about creating since Genesis 2. Our choice is to let Sunday morning be our encouragement to move out into the world and join Jesus out there, or to stay in the walls and wait for Jesus to find the spare key in order to get back in. Let's go.
So why do I ask the question about where Jesus lives? I think we functionally understand that Jesus lives inside the church walls, looking out at a broken world and hoping people will come to Him for solutions. It sort of reminds me of the psychiatric stand in the Peanuts cartoon strip. We hold this view when our outreach strategies and programmatic endgame is to get people within the walls of a church building so that they can meet Jesus. This plan, however effective it may have proved in the past (even this is disputable, this plan has created the current reality of the US Church), has significant drawbacks. Those drawbacks are as old as the book of Genesis.
When God created, God formed a Temple worthy of God's beauty and majesty. This Temple was called the universe, or Creation if you want to use more Church-language. Within that Temple, God created a smaller temple called Eden. God moved about the temple as a smaller version of the big thing, but with one notable exception- the presence of human beings. But human beings thought that God was confined, and so they opted for "wisdom" and instead received shame. They hid in the mini-temple from God. A place which had told the story of God's beauty suddenly didn't. It now told the story of hiding. And so that mini-temple was abandoned.
The second mini-temple was the tabernacle, culminating in the construction of a physical temple in Jerusalem. This temple also reflected the cosmic Temple with the exception that there were now steps of entrance so that human beings could be in the temple space with God as well. But the problem came when the people of Israel thought that God was confined to the mini-temple, and not the Temple. So with a version of God neatly confined to the Jerusalem temple, the Israelites trashed the cosmic Temple with waste, denial of sabbath, injustice and idolatry.
The New Testament introduces a new mini-temple- the Church. Not the building, the physical bodies of the people. Now the cosmic Temple unites with the mini-temple. And the Holy Spirit resides in both.
And so now we come to the dangerous theology of Jesus living inside the Church structures. Church buildings, in my estimation, are good. They can house worship services, community functions, and provide resources for ongoing ministry to the most vulnerable and marginalized in the community. However, they also run a particular risk of believing that Jesus is waiting on us to minister before He will get involved.
The New Testament seems to say that Jesus wants to partner with us in ministry, but not to wait for us. Indeed, it seems that we inherit Jesus' ministry, which means that Jesus is already outside the walls and working. Jesus is on the streets and sitting in the homes of the lonely. Jesus is in the eyes of the starving and providing encouragement to those in despair. In fact, when we meet Jesus in Revelation 3, Jesus is trying to go to church but has been locked out. The people inside are too busy caring about other things than getting involved in Jesus' work of love, justice and reconciliation. For those who are wondering, it is the Church of Laodicea, who famously get called "lukewarm" and have been the subject of intense sermons for centuries.
Friends, we have been hiding since Genesis 3. We have been trying to rest on our own "in-ness" since the Old Testament. Jesus is already at work in the great Temple of the universe, and the Holy Spirit has been flitting about creating since Genesis 2. Our choice is to let Sunday morning be our encouragement to move out into the world and join Jesus out there, or to stay in the walls and wait for Jesus to find the spare key in order to get back in. Let's go.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Abundant Life and the Walking Dead
No secrets. I love the Walking Dead. It is by FAR my favorite show on television. What started as a story about surviving the zombie-apocalypse has evolved into a story about what it means to be human. The Walking Dead title does not refer to the numerous zombies which populate the show, but the fact that the wear and tear of survival gradually strips the humanity of the characters in the show. Some characters are set up as villains (such as the mildly psychotic "Governor" in the current season), while others are rivals who "lose it" (such as fan favorite Shane in season 2). Even the stalwart leader of the group, ex-sheriff Rick Grimes, has spent several episodes experiencing increasingly vivid hallucinations. It seems like, to Rick, that non-reality is more compelling than reality. An attack from the Governor's private army keeps him from losing touch completely.
One of the compelling ironies of the third season of The Walking Dead is the juxtaposition of two situations: Woodbury and the prison. The Governor runs a modern town named Woodbury, where citizens live walled in from the zombie threat and isolated from the post-apocalypse. They wear clean clothes, have limited electricity and have picnics. They also live in a thinly veiled savagery. The town's entertainment is a Colosseum-like experience where contestants have to face each other and chained zombies. Newcomers to Woodbury are appalled at how callously the citizens treat the constant threat.
On the other hand, the main core of survivors have fortified a prison for their home. Beyond the irony of a prison being an ideal place to live, the prison has none of the comforts of Woodbury. The prison is full of zombies which are (mostly) sequestered from the main cells, although a few always sneak through. The prison fence is broken in areas and allow zombies to get into the main field, providing for regular encounters with the population. There is no electricity in the prison, and people sleep in bunks at the cells. But the people there have a picture of reality. They know what zombies are like and are committed to the common purpose of one another's survival. But they have no creature comforts. How do they possibly survive or even thrive without the Woodbury-like isolation and protection? They enjoy precious conversations, the joy of a shared joke and the common tie of family which holds them in all situations.
It is not hard to draw the parallels to non-zombie-invaded society. With the world being ravaged the way it is by crises of disease, war and hunger, those reading this post likely are doing so in Woodbury. You have enough. You are not scraping by to survive. And there are people across the world who are scraping by to survive who are enjoying moments of shared smiles, common joy and helping one another. Middle-class America, on the other hand, struggles with some of the worst depression, highest addiction rates and vicious domestic violence. And if you haven't experienced the despair of addiction, you may know the exasperation of living vacation to vacation, or surviving until "this season is over." And I could easily write a series of posts about the thinly-veiled savagery of a society which lets execution videos go viral.
I have told my coach "My goal is to get to (Day X), then my schedule will clear up." And sometimes that is true. What is far more likely is that I am living in a different kind of Woodbury ignorance. My world is directly affected by my choices, but I sometimes live in ignorance of that fact. Would I need to live vacation to vacation if I chose the abundant life offered to me in Jesus Christ (John 10:10) today? Would our society be the most self-medicated society in human history if we acknowledged that our lives are producing the exact result they are designed to produce? And would it be possible that we would experience resurrection in this life if we believed the promise of true rest in Jesus Christ?
As for me and my house, I see no better time than Lent to decide the Abundant Life over the Walking Dead.
One of the compelling ironies of the third season of The Walking Dead is the juxtaposition of two situations: Woodbury and the prison. The Governor runs a modern town named Woodbury, where citizens live walled in from the zombie threat and isolated from the post-apocalypse. They wear clean clothes, have limited electricity and have picnics. They also live in a thinly veiled savagery. The town's entertainment is a Colosseum-like experience where contestants have to face each other and chained zombies. Newcomers to Woodbury are appalled at how callously the citizens treat the constant threat.
On the other hand, the main core of survivors have fortified a prison for their home. Beyond the irony of a prison being an ideal place to live, the prison has none of the comforts of Woodbury. The prison is full of zombies which are (mostly) sequestered from the main cells, although a few always sneak through. The prison fence is broken in areas and allow zombies to get into the main field, providing for regular encounters with the population. There is no electricity in the prison, and people sleep in bunks at the cells. But the people there have a picture of reality. They know what zombies are like and are committed to the common purpose of one another's survival. But they have no creature comforts. How do they possibly survive or even thrive without the Woodbury-like isolation and protection? They enjoy precious conversations, the joy of a shared joke and the common tie of family which holds them in all situations.
It is not hard to draw the parallels to non-zombie-invaded society. With the world being ravaged the way it is by crises of disease, war and hunger, those reading this post likely are doing so in Woodbury. You have enough. You are not scraping by to survive. And there are people across the world who are scraping by to survive who are enjoying moments of shared smiles, common joy and helping one another. Middle-class America, on the other hand, struggles with some of the worst depression, highest addiction rates and vicious domestic violence. And if you haven't experienced the despair of addiction, you may know the exasperation of living vacation to vacation, or surviving until "this season is over." And I could easily write a series of posts about the thinly-veiled savagery of a society which lets execution videos go viral.
I have told my coach "My goal is to get to (Day X), then my schedule will clear up." And sometimes that is true. What is far more likely is that I am living in a different kind of Woodbury ignorance. My world is directly affected by my choices, but I sometimes live in ignorance of that fact. Would I need to live vacation to vacation if I chose the abundant life offered to me in Jesus Christ (John 10:10) today? Would our society be the most self-medicated society in human history if we acknowledged that our lives are producing the exact result they are designed to produce? And would it be possible that we would experience resurrection in this life if we believed the promise of true rest in Jesus Christ?
As for me and my house, I see no better time than Lent to decide the Abundant Life over the Walking Dead.
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Mardis Gras, Lent, SOTU and Sermon on the Mount
Millions of people did at least one of two things yesterday: eat Paczki's (or another indulgent dessert) and watch the State of the Union Address. It was simultaneously the greatest day of caloric excess allowed in organized religion as well as an update on the health of the nation. If you are beginning to see the irony... good. The State of the Union, or SOTU in the ever-increasing desire to abbreviate for social media, has long become less of an update and more of a preview of the political arenas of the next several months. The SOTU is a time for lines in the sand to be drawn. This is made more obvious when the SOTU is followed up by two additional speeches by opponents. It's a day to score points and use them as political capital to move agendas. Meanwhile, Mardis Gras (or Fat Tuesday) is a day for unlimited consumption, a certain party down in New Orleans and a day to "get it out of your system" before the fasting season of Lent. It is indulgent as well as delicious.
There is a common thread to both of these events. The common thread isn't about who is president, nor is it about politics. The common thread is that both days are days to relax one's personal responsibility. On Fat Tuesday, you can consume guilt-free. In the SOTU, you get to hear about how other people are supposed to make this land a better one in which to live. Your only responsibility is not to look. Don't look at the scale, don't look at your own life, don't look at your neighborhood.
Lent, on the other hand, is all about looking inward. Lent asks tough questions about excess and invites us into the liberating journey of self-control. Leave guilt and obsessive binge behind, embrace simplicity and grace. Lent holds up the funny paradox that getting everything we could ever want leaves us empty, but giving of ourselves to serve others leaves us full. In Lent, I find hope and energy in the Sermon on the Mount. What the SOTM lacked in pomp and circumstance it made up in grace and power. Imagine being on the brink of despair and hearing the words "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." Imagine, in an empire which spread peace at the tip of a sword, hearing "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called children of God." Christ offers us a different way- a humble way, a merciful way.
Indulgence is easy, humility is hard. Drawing lines in the sand is easy, reaching across the lines to love one's neighbor is hard. Struggling for power and one's one agenda is not necessarily easy, but it certainly is easier than setting one's own agenda aside and listening. I guess that's why Fat Tuesday is only one day, and Lent is a 40-day journey. Perhaps this Lenten season is one where we can all pull together and embrace the Sermon on the Mount just a little bit in our lives.
There is a common thread to both of these events. The common thread isn't about who is president, nor is it about politics. The common thread is that both days are days to relax one's personal responsibility. On Fat Tuesday, you can consume guilt-free. In the SOTU, you get to hear about how other people are supposed to make this land a better one in which to live. Your only responsibility is not to look. Don't look at the scale, don't look at your own life, don't look at your neighborhood.
Lent, on the other hand, is all about looking inward. Lent asks tough questions about excess and invites us into the liberating journey of self-control. Leave guilt and obsessive binge behind, embrace simplicity and grace. Lent holds up the funny paradox that getting everything we could ever want leaves us empty, but giving of ourselves to serve others leaves us full. In Lent, I find hope and energy in the Sermon on the Mount. What the SOTM lacked in pomp and circumstance it made up in grace and power. Imagine being on the brink of despair and hearing the words "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." Imagine, in an empire which spread peace at the tip of a sword, hearing "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called children of God." Christ offers us a different way- a humble way, a merciful way.
Indulgence is easy, humility is hard. Drawing lines in the sand is easy, reaching across the lines to love one's neighbor is hard. Struggling for power and one's one agenda is not necessarily easy, but it certainly is easier than setting one's own agenda aside and listening. I guess that's why Fat Tuesday is only one day, and Lent is a 40-day journey. Perhaps this Lenten season is one where we can all pull together and embrace the Sermon on the Mount just a little bit in our lives.
Friday, February 1, 2013
I Don't Know What You Said
How important is listening? Consider this story.
When I was in seminary, I had the coolest invention in the world. It was a portable french press coffee maker. It was the size of a travel mug, and I would put my coffee at the bottom and put hot water into the mug. After a few minutes, I would push down a metal filter and it would push the coffee grounds to the bottom of my mug. I could then drink french pressed coffee on the go. It was so cool.
Until I got to the bottom of the mug. The filter was not perfectly designed to the mug, which did not have a consistent shape and size the whole way down (look at your travel mug and you will see). So when I drank the last bit of coffee, a landslide of coffee grounds would accompany the last gulp. The first time I had a mouthful of grounds, I was very unhappy. The mug has found its way to the garbage can.
Filters are very important. They keep the stuff you don't want away from the stuff you do want. We filter coffee, water and all sorts of other things in order to deliver the freshest stuff possible. We are encouraged to have filters in our minds as well. Christ gives us a two-part filter- love God and love neighbor. Anything that crosses into our minds which doesn't facilitate one of those actions ought to be filtered out.
But that isn't the only filter we have in our minds, is it? The work of maturity in the Christian life is one of constantly identifying and examining our filters.
In other words, I don't know what you say. I only know what I hear. You may say something to encourage me. I will hear something else because my mind filters and sifts what I hear based on what I believe about myself, God, you and the world.
Here is an example. I have a filter based on approval. If something that sounds like criticism hits my filter, it triggers a reaction. "You just don't like me," "You are wrong, I am right," "I am wrong, you are right." When I hear phrases like those, I am very likely to get an emotional reaction- an angry inner monologue, a desire to "check out," or a certain defensiveness which is unnecessary.
True listening, then, is some of the hardest work a person can do. Do you ever find yourself reacting to a person before the person is done speaking? Do you ever find yourself thinking about what "I wish I could say to _________?" Do you believe that "all ___________" believe and act the same way? Then you may have a mental filter which deserves to be investigated.
Unexamined filters have a name in our society- Prejudice. Unchecked prejudice in a society is a viral attack on God's intended shalom. And the only obvious cure for prejudice seems counter-intuitive- Listening. One of my goals is to hear as much of what you said and as little of what I filter as possible. I can't form a relationship with a filtered version of you, nor would I want to. I don't want a stereotyped/filtered version of me, I want the true me. And since I am called to love my neighbor as myself, I want to seek to know the authentic you.
So what is your filter? What keeps you from truly listening?
When I was in seminary, I had the coolest invention in the world. It was a portable french press coffee maker. It was the size of a travel mug, and I would put my coffee at the bottom and put hot water into the mug. After a few minutes, I would push down a metal filter and it would push the coffee grounds to the bottom of my mug. I could then drink french pressed coffee on the go. It was so cool.
Until I got to the bottom of the mug. The filter was not perfectly designed to the mug, which did not have a consistent shape and size the whole way down (look at your travel mug and you will see). So when I drank the last bit of coffee, a landslide of coffee grounds would accompany the last gulp. The first time I had a mouthful of grounds, I was very unhappy. The mug has found its way to the garbage can.
Filters are very important. They keep the stuff you don't want away from the stuff you do want. We filter coffee, water and all sorts of other things in order to deliver the freshest stuff possible. We are encouraged to have filters in our minds as well. Christ gives us a two-part filter- love God and love neighbor. Anything that crosses into our minds which doesn't facilitate one of those actions ought to be filtered out.
But that isn't the only filter we have in our minds, is it? The work of maturity in the Christian life is one of constantly identifying and examining our filters.
In other words, I don't know what you say. I only know what I hear. You may say something to encourage me. I will hear something else because my mind filters and sifts what I hear based on what I believe about myself, God, you and the world.
Here is an example. I have a filter based on approval. If something that sounds like criticism hits my filter, it triggers a reaction. "You just don't like me," "You are wrong, I am right," "I am wrong, you are right." When I hear phrases like those, I am very likely to get an emotional reaction- an angry inner monologue, a desire to "check out," or a certain defensiveness which is unnecessary.
True listening, then, is some of the hardest work a person can do. Do you ever find yourself reacting to a person before the person is done speaking? Do you ever find yourself thinking about what "I wish I could say to _________?" Do you believe that "all ___________" believe and act the same way? Then you may have a mental filter which deserves to be investigated.
Unexamined filters have a name in our society- Prejudice. Unchecked prejudice in a society is a viral attack on God's intended shalom. And the only obvious cure for prejudice seems counter-intuitive- Listening. One of my goals is to hear as much of what you said and as little of what I filter as possible. I can't form a relationship with a filtered version of you, nor would I want to. I don't want a stereotyped/filtered version of me, I want the true me. And since I am called to love my neighbor as myself, I want to seek to know the authentic you.
So what is your filter? What keeps you from truly listening?
Friday, January 11, 2013
The Hardest Part of Following Jesus
Today's story is a story of transformation. It's a story of growth, and of what incredible things can happen when we take the process of following Jesus seriously.
When I was a child, I played a game called "Pie Tag." You can only play Pie Tag in the winter. You walk around in a circle until you create a circular path in the snow in which you can run. Then you create several lines across the circle to create a pie-shaped path system in the snow. Then you play a pretty standard game of tag. The problem is that you can't ever step off the path, or you are "it." In other words, you are stuck on the path and have really limited movement. It gets surprisingly hard when you can't pass anyone. Add a few people, and Pie Tag is a blast.
Life is like a game of Pie Tag. Over time, I have learned to see my world through a lens. I have learned a few specific stories with which to interpret every single event, relationship and encounter. In other words, those stories wore paths in my brain and it isn't hard to feel stuck.
My most prominent story has been this: "There is no reason anyone should like you." (Please, don't leave any comments to the contrary- they aren't as helpful as one might think) I have played that game and walked that walk so long that it is a well-worn path in my brain. At times, it isn't hard to instantly jump there.. When I walk that path, my life becomes characterized by envy, false flattery, bitterness and all sorts of un-fun stuff. That pathway limits my ability to respond to you. In other words, that story isn't very liberating or empowering. It wants me to be as free as a man in chains, as a man in quicksand.
Psalm 40:2 states "He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand." I believe salvation is a way out of the well-worn paths and a new way to respond to the world. Christ's death and resurrection gives us new eyes to see (2 Corinthians 5:7), new ears to hear (Luke 8:8) and a new mind to understand (Romans 12:2). In other words, Jesus tells a new story about who I am.
Christ intends for us to be free. I believe that the full and abundant life is one in which we are free from the Pie Tag patterns of our mind and free to hear who we truly are in Christ. I believe that to be free is not to be ensnared by the mud and mire of lies and deceit. I believe there is a new way to be in this world, and it's something I want.
Today I re-commit myself to stop the game of Pie Tag and to learn a new pathway. The pathway I am on is not about how terrible I am, but how great God is and how Christ is not ashamed to call me brother and friend. The pathway I am on embraces Faith, Hope and Love instead of Condemnation, Shame and Fear.
But it's not easy. I get why Lot's wife turned around and went back to Sodom even though it led to her death. Even when the well-worn pathway of shame sucks, there is a haunting appeal to the familiar. I also get why Jesus talks about putting the hand to the plow and not looking back. Even the best days can be sidelined by the old ways of thinking.
I much prefer the way of life. I find joy and excitement there. I find energy there. I find Christ there.
Anyone else with me?
When I was a child, I played a game called "Pie Tag." You can only play Pie Tag in the winter. You walk around in a circle until you create a circular path in the snow in which you can run. Then you create several lines across the circle to create a pie-shaped path system in the snow. Then you play a pretty standard game of tag. The problem is that you can't ever step off the path, or you are "it." In other words, you are stuck on the path and have really limited movement. It gets surprisingly hard when you can't pass anyone. Add a few people, and Pie Tag is a blast.
Life is like a game of Pie Tag. Over time, I have learned to see my world through a lens. I have learned a few specific stories with which to interpret every single event, relationship and encounter. In other words, those stories wore paths in my brain and it isn't hard to feel stuck.
My most prominent story has been this: "There is no reason anyone should like you." (Please, don't leave any comments to the contrary- they aren't as helpful as one might think) I have played that game and walked that walk so long that it is a well-worn path in my brain. At times, it isn't hard to instantly jump there.. When I walk that path, my life becomes characterized by envy, false flattery, bitterness and all sorts of un-fun stuff. That pathway limits my ability to respond to you. In other words, that story isn't very liberating or empowering. It wants me to be as free as a man in chains, as a man in quicksand.
Psalm 40:2 states "He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand." I believe salvation is a way out of the well-worn paths and a new way to respond to the world. Christ's death and resurrection gives us new eyes to see (2 Corinthians 5:7), new ears to hear (Luke 8:8) and a new mind to understand (Romans 12:2). In other words, Jesus tells a new story about who I am.
Christ intends for us to be free. I believe that the full and abundant life is one in which we are free from the Pie Tag patterns of our mind and free to hear who we truly are in Christ. I believe that to be free is not to be ensnared by the mud and mire of lies and deceit. I believe there is a new way to be in this world, and it's something I want.
Today I re-commit myself to stop the game of Pie Tag and to learn a new pathway. The pathway I am on is not about how terrible I am, but how great God is and how Christ is not ashamed to call me brother and friend. The pathway I am on embraces Faith, Hope and Love instead of Condemnation, Shame and Fear.
But it's not easy. I get why Lot's wife turned around and went back to Sodom even though it led to her death. Even when the well-worn pathway of shame sucks, there is a haunting appeal to the familiar. I also get why Jesus talks about putting the hand to the plow and not looking back. Even the best days can be sidelined by the old ways of thinking.
I much prefer the way of life. I find joy and excitement there. I find energy there. I find Christ there.
Anyone else with me?
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Relentless
Be Relentless. Such was the motto of this year's M22 Challenge. Everything from promotional materials to t-shirts had this simple two-word motto emblazoned on it. Those two words carried tremendous meaning and urgency. Be- races are part of a lifestyle, more than simply working out. The lifestyle is that of knowledge, diet, exercise, motivation, attitude. Relentless- literally, never turning back. No one turns around in a race. At least, no one turns around on purpose. Relentless means to never give in, never give up and to expend every last ounce of power and strength on achieving the goal. I wanted to be relentless.
Christians have a similar goal ahead of us. Be holy. Old Testament and New Testament alike bear witness to this goal. Be- the Christian life is the synergy of soul, spirit, mind, body, strength. Holy- never give in, never give up and expend every last ounce of power and strength on achieving the goal. Holiness as quiet piety works for many people, and I am not going to undermine that image. It just isn't mine. I think of holiness more and more in terms of being relentless.
Cornel West has a quote (big surprise that I would quote him) which covers holiness for me: "Interrogate your hidden assumptions." I would say the same thing, but add the word relentless: "Relentlessly interrogate your hidden assumptions." Growth never happens until we confront and interrogate our hidden assumptions. In the M22 Challenge, I assumed that I wasn't' in good enough shape to complete (much less compete) the course. Through training and diet, I interrogated that belief and found it false.
In holiness, I find myself interrogating my hidden assumptions constantly. Little phrases like "That'll never change," or "I always do that," need to be regularly held under the close inspection of the Spirit. In relentlessly confronting my own stories, I have found that the areas in my life in which I get "stuck" are not because I suck at life... they are because I believe an assumption and have never tested it.
Every relationship has assumptions. In my marriage, my assumptions were lifted up in the form of vows. In my friendships, in my family, I have assumptions. Sometimes, my assumptions are built out of my values and are quite healthy. Other times, my assumptions are selfish and are created in order to keep my life quiet and manageable.
I believe that there is more to life than "manageable." I believe that God is relentless and that Christ was relentless and that the relentless life is the only one worth living. Hopefully we can discover together the relentless life of God.
Christians have a similar goal ahead of us. Be holy. Old Testament and New Testament alike bear witness to this goal. Be- the Christian life is the synergy of soul, spirit, mind, body, strength. Holy- never give in, never give up and expend every last ounce of power and strength on achieving the goal. Holiness as quiet piety works for many people, and I am not going to undermine that image. It just isn't mine. I think of holiness more and more in terms of being relentless.
Cornel West has a quote (big surprise that I would quote him) which covers holiness for me: "Interrogate your hidden assumptions." I would say the same thing, but add the word relentless: "Relentlessly interrogate your hidden assumptions." Growth never happens until we confront and interrogate our hidden assumptions. In the M22 Challenge, I assumed that I wasn't' in good enough shape to complete (much less compete) the course. Through training and diet, I interrogated that belief and found it false.
In holiness, I find myself interrogating my hidden assumptions constantly. Little phrases like "That'll never change," or "I always do that," need to be regularly held under the close inspection of the Spirit. In relentlessly confronting my own stories, I have found that the areas in my life in which I get "stuck" are not because I suck at life... they are because I believe an assumption and have never tested it.
Every relationship has assumptions. In my marriage, my assumptions were lifted up in the form of vows. In my friendships, in my family, I have assumptions. Sometimes, my assumptions are built out of my values and are quite healthy. Other times, my assumptions are selfish and are created in order to keep my life quiet and manageable.
I believe that there is more to life than "manageable." I believe that God is relentless and that Christ was relentless and that the relentless life is the only one worth living. Hopefully we can discover together the relentless life of God.
Monday, November 26, 2012
There is a Me in We... If you flip one of the letters
Decidedly, Advent is one of my favorite times of year. It holds the mystery of "Christ is coming again" with the certainty of "Christ has come." It has a conspiratorial feel to it, as people think about living differently and the whispers of a different world. I love Advent.
It also comes with a cart-load of cultural baggage. If you read my last post, "What shall we call this spade," you know that I believe that the dominant picture of Christmastime as a consumeristic binge is idolatrous, if not blasphemous. But how to live differently? As I was lifting weights this evening, it occured to me... I need to ban the word "we" from my vocabulary until Christmas Day.
There is a part of me that loves to speak and write for its own sake. It loves to have people's attention and craves to hear the phrase "that's a great point." The word "we" includes you in on my "great point." It makes our struggle a collective one.
It also abdicates responsibility. I can say "we" and mean "you" or "them." We does not always include me. I can talk about "our struggle" and how "we" need to live differently this season, all the while making no plan or no effort to do it in my own life.
And so this season, I think I'm going to try to stop using the word "we" unless I actually mean "we." In a season all about what people should do for me (they should have one of those big-screens for ME, they should work with MY schedule), what if I instead took a stance where I will take responsibility for my actions and put my word to a different kind of Advent season?
It also comes with a cart-load of cultural baggage. If you read my last post, "What shall we call this spade," you know that I believe that the dominant picture of Christmastime as a consumeristic binge is idolatrous, if not blasphemous. But how to live differently? As I was lifting weights this evening, it occured to me... I need to ban the word "we" from my vocabulary until Christmas Day.
There is a part of me that loves to speak and write for its own sake. It loves to have people's attention and craves to hear the phrase "that's a great point." The word "we" includes you in on my "great point." It makes our struggle a collective one.
It also abdicates responsibility. I can say "we" and mean "you" or "them." We does not always include me. I can talk about "our struggle" and how "we" need to live differently this season, all the while making no plan or no effort to do it in my own life.
And so this season, I think I'm going to try to stop using the word "we" unless I actually mean "we." In a season all about what people should do for me (they should have one of those big-screens for ME, they should work with MY schedule), what if I instead took a stance where I will take responsibility for my actions and put my word to a different kind of Advent season?
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
"What do we call this spade?"
Let's call a spade a spade, shall we?
I worked in retail for about 7 years, a couple of those in a shift manager-type position. I know that the Christmas season is the bread and butter of the retail industry. Managers will be wringing their hands until Christmas Eve, hoping that the numbers will propel them to exist another year.
What's also true about the commercialism of Christmastime is that it is a well-crafted lie. Whereas the hymn says, "The hopes and fears of all the years are met in thee tonight," the surrounding world says "The hopes and fears of all the years are on sale tonight." Materialistic Commercialism tells us that our hopes are made true and our fears can be satisfied by the acquisition of goods and services. It is also the hope of our economy and the hope of our nation- only by spending ourselves into debt can we keep our economy afloat and our nation in prominent standing in the world. Don't believe me? Watch the news in a week.
Let's call a spade a spade, shall we?
The celebration of Christmastime in the United States is idolatry.
Idols are gods who cannot live without our active participation. Consider 1 Samuel 5, where the priests of Dagon continue to prop up an idol that is defenseless against God's holiness. Or Isaiah 57:13 "When you cry out for help, let your collection of idols save you! The wind will carry all of them off, a mere breath will blow them away."
I recognize that, if we altered our patterns and rejected the consumerism, it would cost people their jobs. I recognize that our fragile retail economy rests on the fear of commercial apocalypse. I also recognize that we are being sold a false bill of goods which we know is false. But we are afraid to do anything different because of the very real impact.
So let's at least admit it. Let's admit that we are being sold oceanfront property in Montana (that is, we are being sold a lie). Let's admit that we are spending ourselves into oblivion and depression. Let's admit that the fear of living differently drives us. Let's call a spade a spade.
Then... let's dream of something different.
I worked in retail for about 7 years, a couple of those in a shift manager-type position. I know that the Christmas season is the bread and butter of the retail industry. Managers will be wringing their hands until Christmas Eve, hoping that the numbers will propel them to exist another year.
What's also true about the commercialism of Christmastime is that it is a well-crafted lie. Whereas the hymn says, "The hopes and fears of all the years are met in thee tonight," the surrounding world says "The hopes and fears of all the years are on sale tonight." Materialistic Commercialism tells us that our hopes are made true and our fears can be satisfied by the acquisition of goods and services. It is also the hope of our economy and the hope of our nation- only by spending ourselves into debt can we keep our economy afloat and our nation in prominent standing in the world. Don't believe me? Watch the news in a week.
Let's call a spade a spade, shall we?
The celebration of Christmastime in the United States is idolatry.
Idols are gods who cannot live without our active participation. Consider 1 Samuel 5, where the priests of Dagon continue to prop up an idol that is defenseless against God's holiness. Or Isaiah 57:13 "When you cry out for help, let your collection of idols save you! The wind will carry all of them off, a mere breath will blow them away."
I recognize that, if we altered our patterns and rejected the consumerism, it would cost people their jobs. I recognize that our fragile retail economy rests on the fear of commercial apocalypse. I also recognize that we are being sold a false bill of goods which we know is false. But we are afraid to do anything different because of the very real impact.
So let's at least admit it. Let's admit that we are being sold oceanfront property in Montana (that is, we are being sold a lie). Let's admit that we are spending ourselves into oblivion and depression. Let's admit that the fear of living differently drives us. Let's call a spade a spade.
Then... let's dream of something different.
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
What Next?
The Church is inherently political- don't stop reading! When I say political, I don't mean partisan, nor do I mean that the Church is wedded to the values of a democratic republic. We are not a political party, nor do we seek political power. But we are political.
The Church, at her finest, takes very seriously these words from James 1:27 "Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." In other words, the Church recognizes that the Gospel is an inward (free from pollution) and outward (caring for those on the margins) reality.
The Gospel is a perfect wedding of spiritual reality (Read the Beatitudes in Matthew) and social relationships (Read the Beatitudes in Luke). The Gospel proclaims that there is a new Kingdom here and coming in its fullness. Kingdoms are political entities. We care about real people living in real situations, and so we are inevitably drawn to politics.
Last night, people were disappointed and elated across the United States. Some fell quickly into the melancholy of resentment and others catapulted into the jubilation of a victory lap. Others did both. Others went to bed. Everyone woke up this morning to find that the world is still in desperate need of reconciliation (2 Corinthians 5).
So what next? These words are for those encouraged and those discouraged by the election: It's time for a new and broader imagination. Our job in the Church is not done at the election. It's never done. Our work will always be before us- Christ even told us that the poor would always be among us, even while Deuteronomy bears the bold command that there ought to be no one poor among us. That job still stands before us, and encourages us to a greater imagination than we have had.
Political partisanship has encouraged division which Christ has torn down in His crucified and risen body. It has limited our vision to "our guy winning" and generated either anger or apathy. We can do better. Let's take some time to catch our breath, to reconcile where reconciliation is needed, and be reminded of these words from Jesus: "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go, therefore, and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey all I have commanded you. And I will be with you, even to the ends of the earth."
The Church, at her finest, takes very seriously these words from James 1:27 "Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." In other words, the Church recognizes that the Gospel is an inward (free from pollution) and outward (caring for those on the margins) reality.
The Gospel is a perfect wedding of spiritual reality (Read the Beatitudes in Matthew) and social relationships (Read the Beatitudes in Luke). The Gospel proclaims that there is a new Kingdom here and coming in its fullness. Kingdoms are political entities. We care about real people living in real situations, and so we are inevitably drawn to politics.
Last night, people were disappointed and elated across the United States. Some fell quickly into the melancholy of resentment and others catapulted into the jubilation of a victory lap. Others did both. Others went to bed. Everyone woke up this morning to find that the world is still in desperate need of reconciliation (2 Corinthians 5).
So what next? These words are for those encouraged and those discouraged by the election: It's time for a new and broader imagination. Our job in the Church is not done at the election. It's never done. Our work will always be before us- Christ even told us that the poor would always be among us, even while Deuteronomy bears the bold command that there ought to be no one poor among us. That job still stands before us, and encourages us to a greater imagination than we have had.
Political partisanship has encouraged division which Christ has torn down in His crucified and risen body. It has limited our vision to "our guy winning" and generated either anger or apathy. We can do better. Let's take some time to catch our breath, to reconcile where reconciliation is needed, and be reminded of these words from Jesus: "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go, therefore, and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey all I have commanded you. And I will be with you, even to the ends of the earth."
Friday, October 12, 2012
The Bible: The Answer-Book?
For those who watched the Vice Presidential debate last night, there was a pretty cool moment at the end. The candidates, both practicing and devout Roman Catholics, were asked to speak about their faith and how it impacted them. And they did. They were passionate, they were articulate and they had respect for the Roman Catholic hierarchy. They also got off-track onto politicking, but it's a debate... we ought to expect that. But at the end of the day, I truly believe that both of them are living out of their faith.
Here's the thing... they disagree about what that means. And that's okay. They both turn to resources outside of the Bible to help them create policy. And that's okay, too. You do it, too.
When I was introduced to the Bible, I was told that it was an answer book that contained within it the answer to life's every question. And I believed it, and even told my friends that the Bible had all the answers.
It doesn't. The Bible doesn't intend to give us all the answers. It "merely" serves to introduce us to the One who has all the answers. The Bible is a story of what God has done on our behalf and of the kind of people God is forming us to be. What it doesn't do is answer every question we have about life. And it doesn't necessarily say how a Vice President should exercise authority in a democratic republic.
And this is good news to me. In my best days, I want more out of life than the right answers. After 6 years of academic life, I hope that life is more than the right answers. I want connection. I want to know God. Certainly, with knowing God comes wisdom, but God seems primarily concerned with that connection, then filling me with wisdom. This means that, more than occasionally, I will have a disagreement with another wisdom-seeking Christian about matters in life. And in some circumstances, we may both be right. Wisdom is contextual, and what is wise in my context may not be wise in yours.
Another unintended consequence of the "answer book" mentality is that Scripture becomes a weapon to fight. And so verses are prioritized (in my tribe of being Reformed, generally: Pauline epistles > Non-Pauline epistles > Gospels > Proverbs > Rest of Old Testament > Revelation) and counted numerically in order to determine relative worth in verbal combat. Eventually, the Bible becomes more about being right than being holy.
And I guess that's where I hope we can find a better way. A way where we seek God, recognize that we may disagree, and seek wisdom together.
Here's the thing... they disagree about what that means. And that's okay. They both turn to resources outside of the Bible to help them create policy. And that's okay, too. You do it, too.
When I was introduced to the Bible, I was told that it was an answer book that contained within it the answer to life's every question. And I believed it, and even told my friends that the Bible had all the answers.
It doesn't. The Bible doesn't intend to give us all the answers. It "merely" serves to introduce us to the One who has all the answers. The Bible is a story of what God has done on our behalf and of the kind of people God is forming us to be. What it doesn't do is answer every question we have about life. And it doesn't necessarily say how a Vice President should exercise authority in a democratic republic.
And this is good news to me. In my best days, I want more out of life than the right answers. After 6 years of academic life, I hope that life is more than the right answers. I want connection. I want to know God. Certainly, with knowing God comes wisdom, but God seems primarily concerned with that connection, then filling me with wisdom. This means that, more than occasionally, I will have a disagreement with another wisdom-seeking Christian about matters in life. And in some circumstances, we may both be right. Wisdom is contextual, and what is wise in my context may not be wise in yours.
Another unintended consequence of the "answer book" mentality is that Scripture becomes a weapon to fight. And so verses are prioritized (in my tribe of being Reformed, generally: Pauline epistles > Non-Pauline epistles > Gospels > Proverbs > Rest of Old Testament > Revelation) and counted numerically in order to determine relative worth in verbal combat. Eventually, the Bible becomes more about being right than being holy.
And I guess that's where I hope we can find a better way. A way where we seek God, recognize that we may disagree, and seek wisdom together.
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
What I Wish I Never Would Have Asked For... Maybe.
Not too long ago, I wrote on the question "What Keeps You Awake at Night?" That question has not left me since. Even while planning the fall and winter worship services in our congregation, the idea of "Awake at Night" came up again in terms of our Christmas Eve service. It seems as though God wants this idea to percolate for a while.
But here's the thing... being kept awake at night is romantic in theory, but not so much fun in reality. I like my sleep. I want 8 hours, generally, every night. But I also sing songs of praise that invite God to give me "A Heart Like Yours" and to "Open the Eyes of My Heart." Now that I have asked the question... do I really want the answer?
For two or three weeks, I have lost hours of sleep. I have wrestled, and (nearly) wept, and gotten up to walk around. I wish I could blame caffeine or something, but the reality is that I can't. My caffeine consumption hasn't changed that much. But what has changed is that I am getting a bigger picture of what God wants to do, and I am in the Isaiah place of realizing that I can't possibly do it.
Staying awake at night has helped me have a heart like God's, a heart that breaks for the lost and demystifies the obstacles facing the Shalom Kingdom of Christ, but it also helps me face the obstacles sitting in me that keep me from becoming the person Christ wants me to be. Wrestling at night alternates between wrestling with God, wrestling with anxiety and wrestling with myself. Christ is shaping me to be a person with the capacity to face some of these big issues, but my fear of rejection, my guilt over mistakes and my shameful "I'm not good enough" stand in the way. And so, in these deep moments, I feel like Isaiah... but different. God asks "Who will go for us?" and I answer "It can't be me, I don't know how to do it!"
I long for the cleansing touch of the coals to my mouth. I long for the instantaneous sensation of being made "ready." But the Holy Spirit doesn't offer that to everyone, and I don't always have it. What I do have the still small voice that reminds me that I am a child of God, a member of a royal priesthood, empowered by the Spirit to face whatever God calls me to face, and not alone. And that still small voice knows that I cannot go without "slumber or sleep" (Psalm 121), and beckons me to that safe place of "Come to me, all who are weary, and I will give you rest." Maybe I'll never understand that God who gives rest and keeps me up all night, but I'm sure not running away.
But here's the thing... being kept awake at night is romantic in theory, but not so much fun in reality. I like my sleep. I want 8 hours, generally, every night. But I also sing songs of praise that invite God to give me "A Heart Like Yours" and to "Open the Eyes of My Heart." Now that I have asked the question... do I really want the answer?
For two or three weeks, I have lost hours of sleep. I have wrestled, and (nearly) wept, and gotten up to walk around. I wish I could blame caffeine or something, but the reality is that I can't. My caffeine consumption hasn't changed that much. But what has changed is that I am getting a bigger picture of what God wants to do, and I am in the Isaiah place of realizing that I can't possibly do it.
Staying awake at night has helped me have a heart like God's, a heart that breaks for the lost and demystifies the obstacles facing the Shalom Kingdom of Christ, but it also helps me face the obstacles sitting in me that keep me from becoming the person Christ wants me to be. Wrestling at night alternates between wrestling with God, wrestling with anxiety and wrestling with myself. Christ is shaping me to be a person with the capacity to face some of these big issues, but my fear of rejection, my guilt over mistakes and my shameful "I'm not good enough" stand in the way. And so, in these deep moments, I feel like Isaiah... but different. God asks "Who will go for us?" and I answer "It can't be me, I don't know how to do it!"
I long for the cleansing touch of the coals to my mouth. I long for the instantaneous sensation of being made "ready." But the Holy Spirit doesn't offer that to everyone, and I don't always have it. What I do have the still small voice that reminds me that I am a child of God, a member of a royal priesthood, empowered by the Spirit to face whatever God calls me to face, and not alone. And that still small voice knows that I cannot go without "slumber or sleep" (Psalm 121), and beckons me to that safe place of "Come to me, all who are weary, and I will give you rest." Maybe I'll never understand that God who gives rest and keeps me up all night, but I'm sure not running away.
Friday, September 21, 2012
Greater
"May your God make Solomon’s name more famous than yours and his throne greater than yours!" - 1 Kings 1:47
According to 1 Kings 1, people congratulated David with this blessing. "I hope Solomon is greater than you," they essentially say. Allow me to confess my surprise when I read that this was considered "congratulations."
I'm sure that many parents can totally understand this blessing, since I have heard parents say that they hope that their children accomplish more than they have. I am not a parent and so I do not understand that feeling. But that doesn't mean I don't already think about things like legacy and how I am remembered.
The blessing given to David is that the seeds he planted grow into harvest under someone else's reign. Someone else will get the credit/reward for what David did. This is a valuable perspective to have, and I want it to be mine. The reality is that we are all preparing the earth for the next generation. We will leave our worksites, our families and our neighborhoods for someone else to take over. And I want it to be better.
So who are you preparing your world for?
According to 1 Kings 1, people congratulated David with this blessing. "I hope Solomon is greater than you," they essentially say. Allow me to confess my surprise when I read that this was considered "congratulations."
I'm sure that many parents can totally understand this blessing, since I have heard parents say that they hope that their children accomplish more than they have. I am not a parent and so I do not understand that feeling. But that doesn't mean I don't already think about things like legacy and how I am remembered.
The blessing given to David is that the seeds he planted grow into harvest under someone else's reign. Someone else will get the credit/reward for what David did. This is a valuable perspective to have, and I want it to be mine. The reality is that we are all preparing the earth for the next generation. We will leave our worksites, our families and our neighborhoods for someone else to take over. And I want it to be better.
So who are you preparing your world for?
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Jesus' Wife, History and Reactivity
Sensational Headline: "Was Jesus really Married?"
Reality Underwriting Sensational Headline: A fragment of a document was discovered that dates to the 2nd-4th century and reports Jesus referring to His wife. (Click here for the story)
Dr. Karen King, a professor at Harvard Divinity School, recently released a report that the aforementioned document references Jesus' wife and her status in the Church. This wife is assumed to be Mary by those who believe that Christ was married.
A few things:
1) This document is at least two hundred years younger than any New Testament document (despite King's claim that the document is later 2nd century). Even if it is 2nd century, that dates later than the New Testament by at lest 80-90 years. Considering the timeframe of the earliest-latest writings in the NT is about a century, those years are significant. By the time this was written, theologians were already talking about the four canonical Gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke, John).
2) This document lends itself to Gnosticism, an ancient religion which used Christianity as a foundation, but was heartily and widely rejected as contrary to the Gospel.
3) This document is terribly, terribly incomplete. The "wife" statement in it is an incomplete sentence. We actually can't pull any meaning out of the fragment.
4) And here's the big one... Christians, chill out. Please.
Church, we do not need to be governed by fear. It does us no good to attack the character of Dr. King, especially since she was contacted to translate this fragment by someone else. And I have seen enough attacks online regarding Dr. King and her research to know that we as the Church really need to chill out.
Church, we do not need to be governed by fear. We should be the first to embrace the translating of this ancient text. It gives us context to the rich tapestry of spirituality in the ancient world, and helps us understand the context of the Church's teaching. We also live in a rich tapestry of spirituality in the 21st century, and we are called to grapple with the teachings around us. It's bad enough that we (Christians) are considered anti-knowledge and anti-learning by the rest of the world. We do not need to make it worse by actually rejecting centuries-old documents as a modern liberal plot to destabilize evangelical Christianity.
Church, we can be governed by hope. I am so glad this document was released. It opens the conversation on our history, on the importance of understanding and appreciating our past, on the relationship of sexuality and gender to spirituality and other crucial topics. However, as long as we are governed by fear, there will continue to be an us-them/ally-enemy spirit in our assemblies. Developmental psychologists tell us that us-them thinking is critical to adolescence, but is meant to become nuanced in adulthood. Thus, I must request that we grow up. Let's talk, and more importantly, let's listen. Let's let the facts come out before we make judgments. Let's appreciatively hear what people are devoting their lives to, and then speak the truth in love in the midst of it all. The acts of lowering our reactivity and listening before speaking, both Biblical claims on our discipleship, may just grant us Gospel opportunities. Grace and peace be with you all.
Reality Underwriting Sensational Headline: A fragment of a document was discovered that dates to the 2nd-4th century and reports Jesus referring to His wife. (Click here for the story)
Dr. Karen King, a professor at Harvard Divinity School, recently released a report that the aforementioned document references Jesus' wife and her status in the Church. This wife is assumed to be Mary by those who believe that Christ was married.
A few things:
1) This document is at least two hundred years younger than any New Testament document (despite King's claim that the document is later 2nd century). Even if it is 2nd century, that dates later than the New Testament by at lest 80-90 years. Considering the timeframe of the earliest-latest writings in the NT is about a century, those years are significant. By the time this was written, theologians were already talking about the four canonical Gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke, John).
2) This document lends itself to Gnosticism, an ancient religion which used Christianity as a foundation, but was heartily and widely rejected as contrary to the Gospel.
3) This document is terribly, terribly incomplete. The "wife" statement in it is an incomplete sentence. We actually can't pull any meaning out of the fragment.
4) And here's the big one... Christians, chill out. Please.
Church, we do not need to be governed by fear. It does us no good to attack the character of Dr. King, especially since she was contacted to translate this fragment by someone else. And I have seen enough attacks online regarding Dr. King and her research to know that we as the Church really need to chill out.
Church, we do not need to be governed by fear. We should be the first to embrace the translating of this ancient text. It gives us context to the rich tapestry of spirituality in the ancient world, and helps us understand the context of the Church's teaching. We also live in a rich tapestry of spirituality in the 21st century, and we are called to grapple with the teachings around us. It's bad enough that we (Christians) are considered anti-knowledge and anti-learning by the rest of the world. We do not need to make it worse by actually rejecting centuries-old documents as a modern liberal plot to destabilize evangelical Christianity.
Church, we can be governed by hope. I am so glad this document was released. It opens the conversation on our history, on the importance of understanding and appreciating our past, on the relationship of sexuality and gender to spirituality and other crucial topics. However, as long as we are governed by fear, there will continue to be an us-them/ally-enemy spirit in our assemblies. Developmental psychologists tell us that us-them thinking is critical to adolescence, but is meant to become nuanced in adulthood. Thus, I must request that we grow up. Let's talk, and more importantly, let's listen. Let's let the facts come out before we make judgments. Let's appreciatively hear what people are devoting their lives to, and then speak the truth in love in the midst of it all. The acts of lowering our reactivity and listening before speaking, both Biblical claims on our discipleship, may just grant us Gospel opportunities. Grace and peace be with you all.
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
I Really Shouldn't Say Anything...
Some days it is hard to wake up in the morning, look in the mirror, and not say "Hypocrite." Seriously. Monday mornings are the worst.
You see, I'm a pastor. People pay me money to stand in front of them and tell the old, old story what it means to be a community of followers of Christ. Often, this means painting pictures of areas in which change or transformation is required. Let's face it- following Christ is not terribly simple. And so, week after week (and fill in the multiple conversations I have weekly on the same topic) I do this thing.
So where does the "hypocrite" come in? I give impassioned sermons on the importance of doing justice, loving mercy and walking humbly with God. Meanwhile, I participate (knowingly) in systems which perpetuate injustice, I prefer grudges to mercy and have been known to pass up time with God because the newest episode of Hell on Wheels is on Netflix.
It is too common in which I work on a sermon, and in the midst of working on it, I find out that I may be the person who needs the sermon the most. Frankly, this feeling gets old. I plan on being a pastor for a long, long time. I have a lot of sermons, and a lot of Monday mornings where I will see myself in the mirror, to go.
So what do I do? Should I stop saying things unless I have personally mastered them? Maybe, but my sermons would be limited to the freeing power of sarcasm and understanding the power of your voice. Good stuff, but not quite the full counsel of God.
Do I try to drop the title of hypocrite? I could. After all, I am pretty hard on myself. Maybe my standards are just too high. Maybe I bring them down and just accept that I am who I am. I've been there. It feels good... until I recognize that my low standards help me sleep at night but they feel empty.
Perhaps I need a third option. I'm not going to stop telling the ancient tale of a follower of Christ. I'm not going to stop painting a picture in which I am not currently living. I will probably continue to preach to myself for the rest of my career. And what I will do is be honest. I will tell the story of being a follower of Christ and wrestle alongside you to live into that day by day. I will rejoice with you when I choose justice over apathy, mercy over bitterness and humility over pride. And I will rejoice with you when you do the same.
I acknowledge that I am a hypocrite, but at least I am one in recovery... just like all of us. So what do you say, shall we wrestle together?
You see, I'm a pastor. People pay me money to stand in front of them and tell the old, old story what it means to be a community of followers of Christ. Often, this means painting pictures of areas in which change or transformation is required. Let's face it- following Christ is not terribly simple. And so, week after week (and fill in the multiple conversations I have weekly on the same topic) I do this thing.
So where does the "hypocrite" come in? I give impassioned sermons on the importance of doing justice, loving mercy and walking humbly with God. Meanwhile, I participate (knowingly) in systems which perpetuate injustice, I prefer grudges to mercy and have been known to pass up time with God because the newest episode of Hell on Wheels is on Netflix.
It is too common in which I work on a sermon, and in the midst of working on it, I find out that I may be the person who needs the sermon the most. Frankly, this feeling gets old. I plan on being a pastor for a long, long time. I have a lot of sermons, and a lot of Monday mornings where I will see myself in the mirror, to go.
So what do I do? Should I stop saying things unless I have personally mastered them? Maybe, but my sermons would be limited to the freeing power of sarcasm and understanding the power of your voice. Good stuff, but not quite the full counsel of God.
Do I try to drop the title of hypocrite? I could. After all, I am pretty hard on myself. Maybe my standards are just too high. Maybe I bring them down and just accept that I am who I am. I've been there. It feels good... until I recognize that my low standards help me sleep at night but they feel empty.
Perhaps I need a third option. I'm not going to stop telling the ancient tale of a follower of Christ. I'm not going to stop painting a picture in which I am not currently living. I will probably continue to preach to myself for the rest of my career. And what I will do is be honest. I will tell the story of being a follower of Christ and wrestle alongside you to live into that day by day. I will rejoice with you when I choose justice over apathy, mercy over bitterness and humility over pride. And I will rejoice with you when you do the same.
I acknowledge that I am a hypocrite, but at least I am one in recovery... just like all of us. So what do you say, shall we wrestle together?
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